Trichotillomania

"Trichotillomania," also called hair-pulling disorder, is a mental disorder that involves recurrent, irresistible urges to pull out hair from your scalp, eyebrows or other areas of your body, despite trying to stop.

When I was much, much younger I used to suffer terribly from this disorder. I used to pull my eyelashes, my eyebrows, and hair from the direct top of my head. I had a bald spot at the crest of my head and today there are gaps in my eyelashes. It was one of the earliest signs of my mental disorder. 

I've mostly recovered from this, usually managing to just pull on my hair rather than pulling it out, but of course if you pull enough it's just going to come out anyway. I'm grateful I don't do it as much as I used to anymore.

Happy Hallowe'en & Merry Samhain

Done much earlier than Samhain, but it was Samhain inspired - as well as inspired by the hoodie my bro has promised to get me for Yule.  I am that excited about receiving it. XD

As you can see, I busted out a golden marker for the moon, although I wish I'd have gone a little more outside my comfort zone and did a gold watercolour for it.  I hate seeing all those strokes.  But I already went quite out of my zone for the lines - I rarely line anything in ink anymore, but I think I'm pretty pleased with it.  Despite liking my pencil work as it is more often. :P

And as of recently, Anika's last name is Kivinen.  She's a Finnish with and spooky girl after the rework.  I like to think of her as a selective way to practice what Finnish I learn pft.

Gift - The Housewarming Pineapple

Obviously, the art block is still quite real, but I managed to push myself into making at least this gift for Muge's cousin and his girlfriend.  They moved into their new place and we spent Saturday there for dinner.  It was a really nice time, and doing this taught me of the history behind why the pineapple is a "near universal" symbol of hospitality.

It's a big hard to see it in a photo, but the sections on the pineapple shimmer gold :P  That gold and silver shimmer watercolour palette was probably one of the best things that came in those sketch boxes I got.

Wardrobe Sketch Study - Anika

Wanted to have some options.  I expect to digitize this eventually, most likely drop it in her final sheet.  Gotta love how I can never draw straight...

SketchDump - Anika Jensen[Kivinen]

It almost seemed as if this one wasn't going to be finished tonight, but alas, here it is.  She also managed to get named too!  Working on other stuff, but it's late and I'm tired.  I'll most likely be drawing her in a lot more clothes eventually too.

Maybe if I finally get to the part where I write something for her I'll throw it up here, oop oop.

WiP - New Edge Girl to Torture

Based on this old thing from last year, if anyone remembers that. P:  I've clearly got more in mind for her wardrobe than her actual looks lmfao.  I can't decide on her eye shape beneath all that damn makeup.  I'll get there, it'll just take time to get through the aesthetic first PFT.

She is still unnamed.  I'm taking suggestions.  I have no idea what I'm even looking for in this regard...so we'll see.

I initially considered re-purposing Magda for this, but this character is meant to be a much different kind of personality, so that would have meant completely scrapping all of Magda's stuff and I've already put a lot of love into that, so...time to commit to something entirely new.

Mother's Day

I'm a deadbeat daughter and forgot to buy a card for my mom while I was at work, but at least I can paint kinda alright I guess

Harakkakuppi

A magpie cup, filled to the rim with insight, nothing more...

Courtship - and Other Naali & Harakka Pieces

Forgot to post this here woops.  Look at flirty, handsome Harakka showing off his beautiful feathers/wings to the horned fox lady. x3  This took a fuckton of time to do, mostly because I was trying to fight my urge to rush everything in one go.  I came out great, but damn...mostly the trees were slow to come out. xD  One day I'll learn to put leaves on them! lol

Really trying to work on my settings...too many empty backgrounds.  If I ever hope to do some quality illustrations of these two, I gotta fix that...and find some more creativity for the stories.  Got a few brewing up soon, though...I might end up writing small things for them first to really get an image in my mind's eye.

The second one, "Sienestäjät" is newest, but I haven't felt like digging the scanner out of the pit right now, so I just snapped a shitty photo with my tablet. :P  Probably see it in another post down the line of the proper scan, woop.







And then a random affection sketch of Naali and Harakka.  Most of a random, spontaneous little thing to practice them more.  Harakka can be pretty challenging sometimes, because of how dark everything is...so it just tends to blend all the finer details I want.  Gonna have to work on that.

WiP - Courtship

This took forever to form itself, but once it did I was pleased with it.  I've been very slow on working on this, pacing myself over a few days, because I'm attempting not to rush myself so much.  I'm really excited to finish it though.  It's turning out really beautiful.

Originally, the idea was Naali in her wedding dress with a fully-magpie Harakka, but a comment from my own bae revealed its true nature; a courtship moment, rather than betrothal. :P  Changing the clothes really brought it together for me.  Technically, they are already finished, but the background is growing super extensively.  There's sooooo many trees now. XD

PS. sorry for the shitty tablet quality photos, I didn't think to get proper process pictures.  I only just now realized I could make an entry on it.  Woops.

Telle's Arctic Fox Sketch Commission

The magpie's mother needed an arctic fox image for her article. :P  So she commissioned me to do a quick sketch for her.  It's very nighttime over there right now, so I'm still waiting on her to green light it, but I think it looks pretty nice as is.  I hope it's up to snuff <3

Delayed Sketchbook Pieces

Excuse the long disappearance, I made another journey to Finland to see my lovely magpie~  I missed my drawing tablet and my scanner so much. xD  Had many moments of getting the itch to sketch and only had my sketchbook.  Some ideas just aren't for traditional medium though...I'm sure we'll see some of those belated ideas in the rest of the month or so.

However, I do have a few finished pieces from my sketchbook that I'm relatively proud of. :>

Belated Yulemas Gift

I have no idea why I sometimes think I can paint...because I really cannot, lol.

In any case, this is for the mother of my magpie ♥  She says she is fond of willow tits and though they've lost their fluffiness in translation from pencil to paint, I think you can still see what I was going for. xD; I really like birch trees, also...just saying. and the colour blue lol

I can't wait to give this to her when I arrive to stay :3

Throwback - Lisica / Naali

At the time of creation, this was known as Lisica.  It was a bit after adopting the handle.  She's the very beginning of the vulpes ramus idea, and something like an avatar for myself, I guess.  Just an emaciated, ragged arctic vixen...

I have a Valentine's idea that involves this, which is why I ended up digging it up. You'll be seeing a bit more of her pretty soon~  I've decided that since I am Lisica, this will be Naali.

The Birthday Magpie

Happy birthday to my lovely magpie <3
It's been a very long while since I've taken out the coloured pencils, so I'm sorry it's not terribly good :I  Part of me almost thinks it should've stayed black and white, buuuuut I wanted it to be special so!  Here it is!

I'm at least super pleased with the magpie :P  Naturally, I'd fuck up the fox though lol